One step forward, five steps back

Life has a way of constantly changing. Since April, I have been on a roller-coaster of changes that I just can't get off of. I lost my job. The I got a great job offer, only to find out my MN teaching license wasn't up to date so I couldn't sign a contract. I contacted the powers that be and was told that they weren't looking for anyone else but couldn't actually hold the position for me, but things seemed to be in order. Well, the jokes on me. Today I got an email from the school saying they filled the position so here I am back at square one with no job.

Then there was the unemployment appeal. I got unemployment then was told my former employer was appealing the unemployment request so I had to have hearing with a judge to determine if I am eligible for benefits or not. The hearing was supposed to take place on Friday but at the last minute the employer withdrew the appeal. Yipppee for me. At least I still got that goin for me.

So the next level of drama...my current apartment will not renew my lease so I have to move. I was all set for the perfect apartment then the landlord rented it to someone else. Im almost ready for apartment number two-which I like and can afford-but they want a double deposit because of my crappy credit. ARGH. I don't know if I can do that or not. I gotta sit down and crunch some serious numbers and figure out what my options are. There is always my sisters basement...but damn...I's 33 years old with a master's degree do I really need to resort to that?

I'm so tired of the struggle and of the drama. I'm at a loss as to what to do at this point.

the cavities known as sinusus

I have sinus issues.  I sneeze.  I blow my nose like a foghorn.  My nephew-or perhaps it was a niece-anyone one of the many children in my life used to cry when i blew my nose because it was so loud.  I was diagnosed with Asthma when I was two.  Severe allergies followed.  Dust.  Cats.  Any living plant or tree or bush or weed outside.  Dogs.  Fish.  Chicken.  Beets.  Yeah you might say, who cares about stinky old beets?  Well let me tell you, a five year old little girl who had to sit outside in the hallway by herself crying because her kindergarden class was making gingerbread cookies with beet sugar and she couldn't be anywhere near it would have eaten beats every friggen day of her life if it meant she could be with her class and not be the odd kid out-again.  Due to my allergies and asthma, I spent a lot of time alone as a kid.  The outside world was impossible for me.  Pollen. Trees.  Leaves.  Flowers.  Grass....oh the grass.  Once, I mowed the lawn simply to spite my mother and sisters who were peeved at me because I couldn't do yardwork-they thought I was faking to get out of work.  Well, did I show them!  I mowed the entire lawn.  Wheezing. Hacking.  Snot running down my face.  Eyes swollen shut.  Hands has big as pineapples.  Red.  I walked in the house and my mother ran me into the bathroom, put me in the tub, drowned me in sudafed and I never mowed the lawn again.  Well, on Friday April 3rd I finally had sinus surgery and damn, its not pleasant!

Over the last ten years or so, I have had pretty much a constant sinus infection.  Tons of missed work, tons of pain, tons of medications, all resulting in nothing.  Until last fall when I finally jumped through all the hoops.  I saw the ear nose and throat guy, got the CT scan and was told..."yep, you got issues in your nose."  Well....there ya go!  So, the doctor put me under and cut all sorts of crapola out of my schnoz and here I am a week later still recuperating!  Today I got to go in and they dug around to get more crusties and random crap outta there.  I feel like I still have sinus infection, but, according to the doctor I should be much much better by next week.  So here's to sinus surgery!